I said some bad words this weekend.
I coach people on being positive, yet here I am admitting I was cursing this weekend.
Most of my life I was in a relationship that kept me dependent on someone to fix things. I used to dream of having my own home, and the freedom to have it the way I wanted.
Although I wasn’t the handy one, I was the woman who had to go it alone on most everything else. That made me strong and self-sufficient to the point it’s really hard to ask for help, or accept it.
It was a beautiful weekend this weekend and I dedicated myself to getting my home ready for summer.
I was eager to begin when I discovered the wind had damaged my light. It was hanging by the cord and since I have no electrical background (or skills) I was wondering what I was going to do about that?
My lawnmower blade was tightened so tight it wouldn’t budge to change, and my ladder wasn’t quite high enough so I nearly broke a bone trying to clean my windows when I fell off.
I couldn’t get the garden hose to tighten enough that water wasn’t squirting through the connection and I crushed my finger trying to get the shed door to close.
Being independent has its challenges. But I wouldn’t have it any other way.
It’s taught me I’m resourceful and when I don’t know how to do something, I can learn how. I have learned to ask for help, and accept it.
And today, after the work was all done, I sat on my veranda with a cold drink. I watched my puppy bask in the sunshine and I was overwhelmed with gratitude for the opportunity to own my very own home, and the chance to maintain it independently.
I was 40 years old before I bought this house. It’s not big and fancy, but it is mine. When we moved in, my kids gifted me with the wall art that says “a house is made of walls and beams, a home is made of love and dreams.”
It’s true. Dreams live here.
If you ever doubt your abilities… know this:
You are stronger than you credit yourself to be.
There is nothing you can’t learn.
One small triumph increases your belief you can have another.
And a personal word of advice… from a strong woman to another:
Don’t let fear of what you THINK you can’t do, stop you from pursuing what is right for you.
You CAN do anything.